Following God

Being a true Christian, one that has Eternal Life, one with a mind that presses past the temporary into the Eternal, is one of the most painful things one can decide to do.

We reject a life of ease and comfort.
We embrace a life of discipline, devotion, and delays.
We choose right over easy.

If you meet self-proclaimed Christians who do not live life fitting this mental model, who live life just like everyone else in this world, then they’re probably false Christians, which represent the vast majority of self-proclaimed Christians today as of September 14, 2025.

Faith is not built in comfort.

It’s forged in fire.

God walks with us through the fire.

From my studies on history and observing society and humans, it is also one of the most uncomfortable and most difficult ways to live in any generation.

One will seem foolish to follow God as a true Christian.

Following God does not lead to happiness all the time.

There is joy for sure, there is peace, and many benefits, but a true Christian’s life will not be smooth at all.

A worldly life lived against God is MUCH easier, feels better physically, and even mentally. But true lasting, evergreen fulfillment of our spirit, regardless of circumstances, is only found in a real relationship with God—our Maker.

True Christians live a life filled with suffering not only from humans but from spiritual forces of darkness that attack with intensity proportional to how close they follow God.

The more someone follows, and the closer they get to Truth, the more Satan’s kingdom attacks them. This is simply reality because demonic powers are limited and they must prioritize.

Even Hinduism’s roots testify of this dynamic with the concept of a divine essence that cannot be seized by the mind. If you try to clutch at it, your restless chitta creates suffering. What many don’t realize is that this suffering is caused by demonic powers that do not want practicing Hindus to know the Truth.

I’ve listed below some of my deepest pains experienced when I chose to do what’s right in a situation over what’s easy.
Often, three or more of these major pains are being freshly felt at the same time in any given moment of my life:

1. A Christian girl I waited for decided to date someone else (aligned with my prayers)—helped me discern God’s Will for me but it was still heart-aching.

It’s painful because this was the first time I had hope of finding a life partner again but it didn’t work out.

It’s painful because we actually dated on and off in 2024 but I wasn’t ready or a good boyfriend since I never wanted to get married again until Jan/Feb 2025. I broke it off because I loved her and knew I wasn’t the best for her.

By the time I asked her if she’s open to dating seriously, for marriage, she was in a different phase in life and was in China. She came back to Toronto recently and told me she met someone else within the first few weeks back here haha…life is humorous.

Her things are still stored in my house because she asked me to help keep them safe until she returned to Toronto.
Extra painful.

God loves her and didn’t want her to be hurt by my lack of readiness anymore. She told me that no one has ever rejected her before I did in 2024 and I had to do so again in 2025 out of love for her. I had to distance myself because I knew with certainty that God said I wasn’t ready. I definitely hurt her.

Both of our sufferings and pains were necessary as we both follow God’s plans over our own plans.
May God bless her.

2. My own brother (agnostic, at least as of now) believes I’m psychotic and my psychosis explains experiences with God.

3. I had to stop seeing one of my closest friends recently because God revealed that they claimed to know Him but does not and that if I keep hanging out with this person, it would hinder my new-found mission mainly because of how much influence he has on me and my son. This person consciously chose to define God on their own terms, a serious blasphemy. He decided to stop talking to me when I spoke to him about how our view of God is different and became defensive when I delivered a message from God to him on one of his deep sins. He chose pride and worldly pursuits (even though they seem good) over our friendship and over God. Very unfortunate but necessary pruning.

4. My son’s mom (person I was once married to) regularly treats me with a high level of aggression, disrespect, and true maliciousness. She treats my son with very questionable parenting that concerns even Children’s Aid. Yet God calls me to love her as a person, see her as a lost daughter of His, cooperate with love, and pray for her.

The strangest thing is that by worldly standards, when I make certain decisions, I should be experiencing stress or sleeplessness but instead I experience calm and peace that makes no sense. My sleep remains high quality. Following God correctly (not our own voices) truly is exactly like the Bible says—produces a peace that transcends understanding.

The names of everyone above are on a whiteboard of people I pray for regularly.
I never wanted to do this and always thought only perfect Christians did this.
Yet me, being as imperfect and flawed as I am, was told by God to explicitly make that board and write specific names.
I will obey.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” ~ Psalm 34:18

I never knew what being Christian truly meant until December 2024 when I began testing a hypothesis to see if the Bible is truly God’s Word or not—and if the Christian God is real and who He says He is or not.

Prior to this, I called myself a Christian, but never pursued sanctification—true discipleship—and thus never experienced vivid tangible God-at-work space time distortions that I would’ve previously called “miracles”.

Now I understand that’s simply reality.

The same reality is documented in the New Testament, which is recordings of life experienced by followers of Christ after God’s personal sacrifice of His death on earth, the covenant we’re currently under.

It's supposed to be hard. Keep going.

Diary 7/26/25 - Car Crash Witness

July 26, 2025 - 4pm - Car Crash Witness - Elgin Mills and Leslie St (camera timestamps are wrong)

Toyota crashes into Porsche SUV July 26, 2025, 4 pm EST, Elgin Mills and Leslie St, Toronto, Canada.

This is right before going on a ramp to a highway. 

The Toyota was following the Porsche extremely closely. When the Porsche slowed down and stopped normally, the Toyota literally rammed into it with so much force that pieces splattered everywhere, and then it pushed it forward even further because the Toyota’s driver simply did not step on the brakes for a few seconds.

This could’ve been fatal if it were on the highway, which we were all going towards and would’ve entered in ~5-10 seconds.

The Toyota driver was distracted and held a phone in his right hand the entire time he crashed into her.

They were both unharmed, thankfully.
It could’ve been much worse.

Many cars witnessed it and just kept on driving to get to where they wanted to go. They didn’t care.

My instinct was to also go around because I was supposed to go to the gym, and if I stopped, I definitely couldn’t work out that day, since I had a limited time window.

God said, “Stay,” so I obeyed.

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I don't know who this woman is.

She took down my number, and I left since it was a minor accident.

The guy who hit her was on the phone and distracted.

— Texts between me and her —

Me: Police asked me for a statement so I’ll send my statement and the video. It recorded him admitting it’s his fault in the audio.

Don’t worry. You’ll be fine. God probably wanted me to be there for you.

God loves truth so you will see. There is no way any lies will slip by for this situation now.

Her: I am really appreciate what you have done. I was shocked by then, I am so glad you were there with me and willing to be the witness for the accident. I believe God will send someone to help weak people.

Me: Definitely. I already walk very closely with God. I’m not perfect but I try. Remember I said this: you really should find a Christian church if you haven’t already and just learn and see.

You may think I’m crazy but I’m just different.

Something is coming soon. I hope you and your family all know God and soon.

Her: For sure. I used to attend regularly. But life got in the way. I will look to rebuild that part of my life again.

Me: Believe me when I say this: God put me there today to tell you that you need to seek Him.

I’ll pray for you. Return to Him.

Ensure you and people you care about repent and accept the truth.

But the most important thing is this: obey.

Because not everyone who believes in Jesus is in heaven. I know this. God is looking for a soft heart that seeks obedience.

“Thank you God for letting me meet (anonymous). I know you are calling her back so that when your Kingdom comes, she can rest assured knowing she seriously obeyed and followed you the best she can. Draw near to her. Protect her. Let her see and hear you with her spiritual eyes and ears. In Jesus’ name. Amen.”

I saved your contact and will follow up with you from time to time to make sure you really have salvation.

Her: I really need to find a good church with mandarin speakers. Please pray for me. Thank you so much.

Me: Let me ask around

Why Follow God

Just revealing some space-time distortions.

Not everything. Not all at once.

I document my life extremely thoroughly.

Unfortunately, only public information can be revealed, at least for now.

Later, when the time is right, I plan to get consent to reveal incredible evidence of God’s Hand.

However, only a tiny fraction of humans will believe me even when I reveal those. It is what it is. I’m only here to help the chosen ones, destined to know God since birth. Jesus simply said the words. He never tried to even debate because He knew what I now know. Same with Paul and all the disciples. They never debated. If someone doesn't believe or doesn't agree. Great. Move on to the next door. Optimizes for time on earth.

"When you knock on a door, be courteous in your greeting. If they welcome you, be gentle in your conversation. If they don’t welcome you, quietly withdraw. Don’t make a scene. Shrug your shoulders and be on your way. You can be sure that on Judgment Day they’ll be mighty sorry—but it’s no concern of yours now." ~ Matthew 10:14-15

If it didn't work like this, I'd probably quit this. If I had to take on the responsibility, I would certainly tell God "Hey, I already have salvation, this is too much, can I please just go live a normal Christian life?"

When it gets extremely tough, when my own family thinks I'm crazy, the Holy Spirit reminds me of what Paul wrote:

"Who do you think Paul is, anyway? Or Apollos, for that matter? Servants, both of us—servants who waited on you as you gradually learned to entrust your lives to our mutual Master. We each carried out our servant assignment. I planted the seed, Apollos watered the plants, but God made you grow. It’s not the one who plants or the one who waters who is at the center of this process but God, who makes things grow. Planting and watering are menial servant jobs at minimum wages. What makes them worth doing is the God we are serving. You happen to be God’s field in which we are working." ~ 1 Corinthians 3:6-15

I follow and obey, that's it. That's my entire responsibility. I'm not responsible for anything else, thankfully, otherwise I will be completely crushed by the weight of what's coming to the world soon.

This stuff happens to me every day, several times a day, in different categories of God’s deeds.

Not everyone will experience or see it because it works like this:

“You’re blessed when you get your inside world—your mind and heart—put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.” ~ Matthew 5:8

I’m not special.
Just another human like you.

But I did something special.
And I recommend giving it a try.

Before my dad went Home, he told me to read one and only one book:

"Money, Sex, and Power" by Richard Foster.

It’s about obedience to God, a counter-cultural concept.

It’s about the challenges of pursuing sanctification through a disciplined life.

It’s about doing what’s right, not what’s easy.

I decided to test the hypothesis that something special would happen if I chased perfection with maximum effort in all aspects.

Hypothesis: "If I try my best to return to my original design, Adam, by copying Jesus to the absolute best I can as a flawed human, then I should experience a state change."

I had no idea what would happen as a result of pursuing this.

Basically, life as described in the Bible continues—life with God.
I never knew it was possible.

I immediately saw: God wrote a story and is still writing. I have no idea why.

But it's an EPIC story of insane proportions.

I'm no longer able to enjoy anything except Life.

Nothing was ever the same again.

How can you enjoy a movie when you live the very Life that those movies were inspired by?

I literally see the greater demons with my spiritual eyes, by the Grace of God, and experience both the greater and lesser demonic attacks.

I do nothing, resist, don't give in to their lies and threats, and WIN because of faith in God when I call upon His Name. It is exactly like the Bible says.

I count these attacks as blessings. Seriously. I never understood before. It is exactly like the Bible says. It’s one of many signals I use to analyze if I’m on the right track or not. The more attacks, the better. Come at me.

I'm blessed to have met others who have much more experience than I and have been through more than 100 battles personally with the same demon, the main one that tries to "bite your head off". Very unpleasant to experience. When my friend described that to me without me ever mentioning my own experience, that's when I knew they're all from the same father in hell. That's also when I knew he was destined to do something great for God, because the demons have limited energy, they attack the ones who threaten their kingdom the most.

Demons will be invisible to the vast majority of humans since these humans pose no threat to them or their kingdom. The demons will just cause great damage to these asleep humans slowly through human suffering, which they love most. I’ll try my best but whether someone responds has nothing to do with me. I obey and do what I must and the rest is between them and God.

Fundamentally, the key to understanding demons is: they’re limited in power and energy and already lost, but they are sore losers. I’m now prioritizing to study them because I’m seeing them on my friends and I do not tolerate that. I did not confirm my abilities until very recently. I will likely not write much about this since God’s been leading me to heal people he brought to me first. There are enough books on it already. Those horror movies were mostly based on facts but the asleep are too afraid of the truth to believe it.

The asleep (possibly 99% of the current population, not sure, but a very high %) will never see this and call us crazy and delusional. But I have to put this on the internet simply for this reason: the demons attack when I write the truth on here. They don't like it. That's enough reason.

As a bonus, God assures me through the Bible, timed perfectly after each attack to remind me that I'm doing something right. Otherwise, why do you think I would risk my career or public image by stating these seemingly insane statements?

Even if one person reads and their eyes finally open, it's worth it.

I'm not here for likes or human validation.

Every day, I get to partner with God Himself, the Almighty, and hold the Sword of the Spirit, sharp and true, The Living Word, The Bible, and thrust it into the faces of demons, chasing them into the depths of hell daily, attacking its gates. I see these sore losers in the pit of the abyss where they await their judgment.

I do this by denying myself just as Jesus told us to do.

Copy Him.

Jesus was the Ultimate Warrior.

Jesus was sinless, a perfection of creation, what our ancestor Adam failed to do.

He was not violent. He did not physically destroy. He was the Prince of Peace. Yet, He posed a massive perceived threat to both the religious and political authorities when he walked on earth physically as a human.

Read history and see for yourself how many Roman soldiers were sent to capture Him. Look at the original text and see the language used. They sent way more than necessary for one man, because they knew.

His persecutors were fearful of His Power.

When He was on earth, Jesus was a Giant.

Power distilled into human form, the crystallization of Authority.

He was True Fulfillment, 

Living Water, 

Endless Love.

And He already won.

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The Bible, for the most part, was actually meant to be taken literally—within context but still directly—not watered down and cooled.

God is a consuming fire so humans watering down His Word is a blasphemy on its own.

Demons and human sin allowed a mass delusion using a concept called "Believers".

God never focused on this.

God focused on "Followers".

Followers are a subset of Believers.

Demons are Believers.

Satan is a Believer.

They've seen God and continue to disobey by free will.

This is why I saw a sad reality, revealed by Truth...

By the Grace of God, He somehow responded after I genuinely craved, begged, and demanded Truth from Him with the authority of Jesus Christ, His Son, as co-heir of the Kingdom.

And the Truth revealed is this: a significant % of self-proclaimed "Christians" will be in hell.

If they're still living in the darkness, sinning, they're not following.

They will be judged even harder than unbelievers because they led many astray. They, by their free will lived a double life, causing unbelievers, by their free will, to reject anything to do with Christ.

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day,‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’” ~ Matthew 7:21-23

Jesus is Light itself with no dark spots at all, so logically, how is it possible to be a follower yet live in darkness? Makes no sense.

“I am the world’s Light. No one who follows me stumbles around in the darkness. I provide plenty of light to live in.” ~ John 8:12

Followers will be in Heaven when judgment comes, either through death in this world or when His Kingdom comes.

As for followers, "By their fruits you will know them" ~ Matthew 7:16

God is not seeking perfection. He knows we'll never ever reach it, which is the entire reason He came and died for us Himself.

God does not seek religion. He’s after our hearts.

Just like a husband and wife seeks each others’ hearts. We know when we’re loved unconditionally vs just being treated like a piece in a value exchange system of give and take.

God loves us unconditionally and He’s sad when we don’t love Him back or even try to. He’s even more sad when we literally heard Him whisper or call loudly but decide to go the other way. Imagine if your child did that to you. How would you feel?

He seeks our obedience. Because that is how children of God truly show our love to an infinite being.

Your Salvation is between you and God alone. Only He will know if you truly followed. You follow when you have true faith, not just believing using your logical mind of flesh, but by your soft heart of your spirit that cannot help but respond and do works for God when God's Spirit enters you and never leaves.

This is why the Bible says faith without works is dead. Because good deeds in the world is a guaranteed byproduct of true faith and a sign that God's Spirit entered you.

Those good works could be seen in public or in more private settings. It might be just within the follower’s own home.

But good works alone do not mean you have Salvation.

It's literally just math and logical thinking, which is a small part of the overall expression of God.

Most humans will perish because they chose, with their own free will, the way of the world, even the ones who call themselves "Christian". These people offend me because they have no right to bear His Name.

I came to warn, out of love.

I wish that everyone alive seriously considers becoming a follower of God.

Something changed recently in the world. The time is near.

The Father is and always was angry, since that day, over 2000 years ago, when our sins crucified His one and only Son.

What I saw was that God is everywhere at the same time. Do you understand what this means? It means He is constantly watching His son die on the cross. That’s what it means.

Guess what, it’s our sins that keep Him on the cross, still there. In the past, present, and future, Jesus is still on the cross. That is what I saw. I never saw this before. 

I also saw AI and everything happening in the world cause a great shift towards even more sin. AI porn, AI fraud, AI replacing humans. Dehumanization. Judgement awaits.

God feels multiple feelings at the same time. I never realized until I started doing the same when I’m alone with Him.

The Father will absolutely disintegrate this world soon. Obliterate all those who reject Him. Destroy the principalities, powers, rulers of the darkness of this world, spiritual wickedness, all things flesh. Then He will create a New Heaven and New Earth.

The chosen, pure-hearted, righteous in His eyes, those that didn’t just believe in God but actually KNEW who He is, and FOLLOWED Him, will have eternal Life, sit as co-heirs of the Kingdom with Jesus Christ, and rejoice when Justice is served. This can be you and it is a complete free gift. Pains me to know that most people will never take the gift or even care.

Peace be with you, my friend.

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